Certain About Uncertainty

It’s been a a few weeks since I last posted but I hope to start posting regularly now that my semester is about over. I just have to make it through this dreaded finals week…

Anyway, I keep coming back to this post and have been writing bits and pieces at a time, just letting all my thoughts out in a jumbled mess. I’ve done my best to organize it though, so here it goes.

Until recently, I’ve had very little uncertainty in my life. I’ve always had a plan, and it used to scare me not knowing what was next.

Right now, I’m finishing up taking a business management class called Career Trek. The class essentially prepares you to find a career following graduation by having you perfect your resume, cover letters for potential jobs, do mock interviews, and attend networking events. The class is entirely centered around having a plan for your professional life after graduation.

To be quite honest, the first few weeks I sat in this class, I was stressed out of my mind. I have never felt more anxious in my life than how I felt in this class. As a senior, wasn’t I supposed to know which direction I was heading following graduation?

I used to envy my friends and peers for knowing what they wanted, for having a plan. Some have accepted jobs and internships, some are in graduate school or planning to go, others have moved to the city of their dreams. And then here I am… no plan, no idea what I want to do.

At some point during this semester though, something changed. I can’t pinpoint that exact moment, but I realized that it’s okay to NOT know.

While I will be graduating with a degree in marketing in a few months, I’m still not sure that’s the direction I want to go in. In the past, I thought I wanted to be on certain career paths, and I tried to convince myself that I was right for them. But I never took the time to really think about if they were right for me.

I’ve realized that now is the perfect time in my life to try out different areas to figure out what I like, to find my niche.

It can actually be the most exciting knowing that there’s so much I want to experience and I don’t have to stress about finding the “right” path that I am going to stay on the rest of my life right out of college. I have no idea where I’m going to be living in the next couple of years, or the kind of people I might meet, and the uncertainty no longer seems daunting.

I still love to make lists (and cross items off of them- but who doesn’t?), plan itineraries, and know what I’m going to be doing next weekend. I don’t think that will ever change.I do know that I will eventually find what I’m meant to do and whatever I try along the way will just get me that much closer to where I want to be. I know what I love and knowing that there is so much I have yet to experience is what I have to look forward to.

One of my professors showed the video below in my final class of this semester and I felt it was applicable to this post, so take a couple minutes and watch it!


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  1. Pearl Ann Schwartz says: Reply

    I’m not sure we ever eliminate “uncertainty” from our lives. Any time we encounter something new or unfamiliar, we may feel uncertain about the way to handle it. What helps is our knowledge that we’ve successfully dealt with uncertainty before. “Been there, done that.”

    You’re correct that this may be the best time of your life to explore and see what’s right for you. It’s not that this exploration can’t be done at any time, but the younger you are and the fewer responsibilities you have the better.

    It’ll be fun to see where your life’s journey takes you!

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